Sunday, December 21, 2003

I knew I was getting disjointed in my blogging. I completely forgot to call my best friend in the whole world on his 30th birthday and I'm really feeling like crap about it. That's probably been the theme for my whole day though since I realized my faux paus this morning.


The madness is never going to end.

Okay, I feel marginally better now.

Paul, if you happen to see this, Happy Belated Birthday and I'll call you this week sometime.
I think the term is mental breakdown, but I'm not sure anymore. I'm ready for Christmas vacation. I haven't updated here in awhile because: a. my goals for life have dropped off the map and b. I've been unusually busy at work and haven't had much free time.

Have you ever been to a point in your life where you can't focus on anything? I have goals. I want to lose weight. I want to get certified and learn more about programming for the web, computer security, and networks in general. I have a stack of books and magazines I would like to read. I have a house I would like to clean up and organize. Somewhere in there I would like to spend time with my wife also.

I can't focus long enough to get one thing done. In a given night I have 5 very usuable hours to do things and I usually end up screwing them away doing nothing of importance. It's very frustrating. I used to be so much more focused than this.

Now I'm rambling. Excuse my poor grammer and or punctuation and spelling. I'm working on that also.

The webcast is going good. I'm pushing to try and get things worked out so I can switch over to MP3Pro around the begining of 2004. This would mean more to you the listener as it improves the overall quality of the stream.

I'm very tired and I'm really not up for going to work at all this coming week. Wednesday I get to go to Alton, Il. and see my grandmother and my uncle's family for Christmas. I can't wait to just be able to relax.

If I don't get a chance to update again before then I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas.