Thursday, October 21, 2004

Just give me what I want and nobody gets hurt. . .

Time for honesty. With myself and with whoever maybe reading. I'm a terribly insecure person. It is kind of a dichotimy with me. I make friends easily, I'm intelligent(both book and common sense), and for the most part people like it when I'm around. Or atleast they haven't told me otherwise. I'm not arrogant, I don't think I'm the smartest, definitly not the strongest, fastest, or best looking. I am me and for the most part I am content to be me.

However, I'm can and will second guess myself and do so often. The great news I had last post doesn't seem as shiny and great right now. Maybe it is just me being impatient, it wouldn't suprise me, but. . . Sometimes deep friendships just don't happen the way you'd expect them to.

I guess we will see.

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Uno, Dos, Tres, Catorce

The devil maybe in the details, but God still has the whole plan. I feel as though this really great thing has happened and I need to be dancing and singing. Imagine what would happen if I got a new job or something major.

I've been praying about God sending me an accountability partner for awhile now. For awhile now I've been considering asking someone I know. Today that person asked me. Some would say God works in mysterious ways and sometimes I would be inclined to agree with them. Today isn't one of those days.

Now if I could just get past this job thing :)

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

One. . .oh one. . .the only way is one

I'm not getting up any earlier than I was, but working out in the morning has this knack for making one feel tired. Currently I'm waiting for a fire drill to begin at work. Other than that it seems to be a bland day. I'm not complaining about that either.

So I started working out again after four monthes of down time. I'm easing into it so I don't feel sore, though my legs are more tired than normal. It's gray outside, which is how I imagine the perfect fall day. Cool weather, just cool enough you need a long sleeve shirt or sweater. The sky is gray and unforgiving, providing the perfect background for the rainbow of colors each tree provides. It's the kind of day I want to sit out on a porch or deck with a good book or magazine and a cup of hot coffee.

Better yet, I think a laptop with wireless and a good connection would work too. Either way it wouldn't be here. I hate slow days.

Monday, October 11, 2004

19 days and counting

So many dreams and goals unaccomplished. How do I take responsibility for my life? There is so much potential that I don't live up to and I don't know how to get there.

We just started 40 Days of Purpose at church. I've read the book before and fully intend to again during this 40 day period. What is my purpose? Why am I here? I know I'm here to glorify God and to spread His good word, but beyond that. . .What are the specifics?

I started this blog as an idea to track the road and goals I set for myself as I finished out my 20's and nothing has changed. I have the same goals and desires. I have to change, *I* have to find a way to do things right by God, by my wife, and by myself. I have to take more time to try, to study, to relax, to workout.

How do I do it?

I work from 8 to 5.

5:30 Wake up
6:00-7:00 Workout
7:00-7:30 Shower and clean up
7:30-8:00 Breakfast, quiet time
8:00-5:00 Work
5:00-5:30 Drive home
5:30-7:30 Study
7:30-8:30 Fix supper and eat
8:30-9:30 Recreational time
9:30~10:00 Go to sleep

Sounds great in a perfect world, maybe it's something I need to try.